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The light that is fading in the clouds

Falling at the window is too noisy

The cooling memory is just like the sound of the rainwater

Capture my heart, refuse to leave

I follow the tortuous path that is wet

Look back at our memories together

In the rain that obscures the vision

I think of you in my tears

You emerge in my mind

All dissipated, whether it’s the time we spent together

Or the look of you and me at the time

Pretending like I didn’t feel a thing, like I erased it

My eyes fill with tears, so I lift my head up

I smile a little so they won’t fall

Why are you like this to me, what are you saying ?

All the things we talked about go to the sky

The words I have never said

The words I might never be able to say again

The words I didn’t know I’d say as I cried

Still pretending like I don’t know

Should I act as if nothing happened ?

Should I just say that we should go out ?

Even though I’m crying, I smile

I block your way and I just smile widely

Why am I being like this, do I not have any shame ?

I fold my pride up neatly and throw it up to the sky